Sunday, September 14, 2008

A grateful, heavy heart

My father passed away Thursday morning.

Writing those words cuts at my very core. It is unimaginable. I knew it would happen some day. Just not that day. Not in the middle of everything else. Not when there is so much to do, so much to talk about, so much to figure out. And already so much hurt.

Daddy was the rock. He and Mama had become my refuge over these months, just as they had been when I was a kid. I could always run to them when I was hurt or tired or just needed someone to say that everything will be okay.

And Daddy and I were finally figuring each other out.

It wasn't too late. The understanding came at just the right time. The humbleness. The open hearts. The acceptance. The forgiveness. God gave those gifts to me over these last few years so that I could bury my father yesterday with no regrets.

No regrets. Thank you, Daddy. Thank You, God.